I have learned many things in the past five years of marriage. I have learned to truly love Melanie. I have strived (and sometimes failed) to honor Melanie by placing her ahead of myself. I have learned that she is not just my wife but my best friend. Even when I am strong willed and selfish, I know that she loves me and will not leave me. I have learned to trust her with everything I hold dear. I reflect on this as I look towards having a child.
Before marriage I only knew that having a baby meant little or no sleep, smelly diapers and no money. After one year of marriage, we adopted a homeless puppy (Dixie) and I learned to love again. I also learned that little ones will break and/or chew up things; these are things and we have to chalk it up to having a little one. Dixie taught me unconditional love. No matter how often I disciplined her, she would always come back and love me. Sometimes it would take a while but she always wanted to be around me again. I feel that Dixie helped to prepare me for this next chapter in my life. Knowing how much I care about Dixie and how much fun we have together, I cannot imagine how great a child will be.
Recently, I learned more things such as where babies come from, babies are not born with the ability to walk and talk, they also have many variations of smelly, sticky, solid and liquid leaks. Perhaps even scarier than this is the fact that they will imitate what they see me act out; this is a heavy thought. As I await the arrival of this new bundle of joy with eager anticipation as well as trembling fear I look forward to all of the new things that I will learn.